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Are You Sure?

Sun, 18 Mar 2012 20:35:00 +0000

It is so hard to believe that so much time has passed since my last blog entry. I will try to keep this up, but I suppose I need more discipline to make that happen. The last 5 months of 2011 are a bit of a blur, however, I am going to update you with one word ... UGH !!!!! Regardless of how we think or feel, staying focused upon the Lord our Rock iand being reminded that He is still in control becomes paramount. I fell ill in the summer and was severely anemic. To make a long story short, a total hysterectomy along with 2 blood transfusions had me back on track by the end of October. I was feeling so good again, and began booking for 2012 .... finally things seemed to be getting back on track, or so I thought. On November 30, I received a call from my doctor to come into the office. The pathology reports were in. The doctor sat me down and said the usual, "I have bad news and good news." The bad news is, I have cancer. The good news is that it is believed to be removed with the surgery. My thoughts? Did I just hear him correctly? Surely there must be some mistake. Are you sure it is MY name on that report? The very last thing I expected was cancer ... I was feeling so good and my hemaglobin was within normal limits for the first time in so very long. I wanted to believe that it was a mistake, but deep down I knew the truth ... and I KNOW the TRUTH .... that in Jesus, there is healing. Now is the time where I must dig down deep and exercise that faith that I've studied for so very long. I've stood upon His Word all throughout my Christian walk, but this was to be the first time for cancer and for ME. We serve a very big God - is He big enough for me, too? Of course He is.... even when we don't feel like He is, HE IS. December was filled with more testing, Doctor appointments, and the beginning of Chemotherapy on December 29. The final diagnosis is Undifferenciated Sarcoma, a very rare form of cancer.

Here we are into March, with 4 cycles of chemotherapy down, and 2 more cycles to go. After that, there is radiation. Now I am feeling very tired and dealing with the side effects of the chemotherapy, one day at a time.

In ministry, I have been leading worship in our church on most weeks, with my keyboard player & guest worship leaders in the area filling in when I am not able to be there. I am looking forward to the summer when all of the treatments are over and I can move forward in what I love to do, meeting with all of you and worshipping our God together, who has been right by my side throughout this journey. His promises are true, and He promises never to leave us or forsake us. I am hoping to be able to start booking by the fall 2012, but I will wait upon the LORD for confirmation of that.

If you are reading this, please remember me, my husband, Jim, and my family in your prayers. We are believing for a complete recovery & healing, in Jesus' name.

The Revelation

Wed, 13 Jul 2011 14:42:00 +0000

In my season of waiting, God has revealed only this so far:

For God's gifts and His call are irrevocable. [He never withdraws them when once they are given, and He does not change His mind about those to whom He gives His grace or to whom He sends His call.] Romans 11:29

... I guess this means that giving up or aging out is not an option!!!

Here Comes the Sun

Thu, 07 Jul 2011 01:40:00 +0000

Hello and welcome to my blog page. I have been wanting to update all of you as to what has been happening in my life and in ministry . So, I've decided to join the 21st century and create this blog.

It has been a long, cold winter, but finally the sun is peeking through the clouds once again. As some of you know, my mother has been ill and, as her only child, I have been responsible for her care for about 4 years. My concert was held on March 18 as scheduled, and the money was raised for my missions trip - I am so thankful for Evangel Assembly and all who worked so hard to make the event a total success ... Thank you to so many of you who have purchased CD's and who have been worshipping with my songs. Your support means more to me than you could ever know.

When I left the concert, I was exhausted and decided to go home instead of back to the hospital to sit with mom.... I couldn't sleep, however. At 12:50 AM, I received a call to get to the hospital as mom was not expected to live through the night. Jim & I went, however, not in time as the LORD took her home at 1:05 AM. When the concert was in the planning stages, arrangements were made for mom to attend. I never dreamed that the LORD would call her home that same night. God has perfect timing, and I know that she is rejoicing with all of Heaven in the presence of our Lord and Savior, Jesus. AMEN !!!

Although I did not take a break from my worship ministry at Evangel Assembly, I haven't scheduled any other events since March 18. The missions trip is currently on hold, and the raised funds are in an account with the church until I am ready. I am now praying about another missions trip - probably in 2012.

Lately, the Lord has been speaking to me about waiting on Him ... and so I am seeking the Lord with diligence, waiting for His revelation as to the direction that this ministry will take in the coming months. I have so many ideas about how I think it should go, but I am totally relying upon Him for confirmation. I want nothing less than to be in the center of His will. If you should think of me, please pray for me during this time.

From time to time, I will be updating here on this page.. Stay tuned ... for the rest of the story!!!!